Making a move

I like to make things. I like to sew fabric into tubes that go around my body, I like to make yarn into appendage-cozies, dice-cozies, neck-cozies . . . I like to make water and dried leaves into a delicious beverage, milled wheat into delicious cakes and muffins, dried legumes into delicious curries, and an unmade bed into a made bed. I like making my muscles harder/better/faster/stronger. I like making numbers on paper and some oddly-shaped dice into a whole fictional person. I like to make myself into different people with clothes and makeup. Occasionally, I even like making a sinkful of foodstained crockery into clean dishes.

Making a move, though? Oy. Maybe it's the nature of packing. Making all the things I've made and will make into . . . boxes of stuff. That's a devolution, I'd say, since, if anything, I want to make boxes of stuff into all the accoutrements of my fabulous life. I want to decorate, fill, feed, entertain, create, write, MAKE. Seeing my fabulous life in those boxes is disappointing. Not that I forget who I am with my things not immediately visible. Pas de tout! I just . . . kind of want to paint the boxes.

Eshet Chayil, or "A Woman of Valor", is the last bit of the Book of Proverbs, which is written by Solomon himself, so his legend tells. Though apparently the Aggadic Midrashim say it's Abraham's eulogy about Sarah Imeinu. Either way, it's become the thing for a husband to recite this to his wife at the end of the week, to thank her for all the thankless schlepping she's done all week. Which is nice.

Now I'm definitely not saying I'm the poster girl for this thing. I'd rather not rise in the middle of the night to begin my work, I'm rather partial to the bread of idleness, (with some cinnamon and sugar over a cup of tea, or with obscure cheese and red wine, yum!) and I'm not the perfect beam of womanly labour described. I imagine Sarah Imeinu could pack up the open-on-four-sides tent of Abraham, move it, wash and wax the camels (now I'm picturing a camel lying on a table in a spa, with the poor aesthetician looking at it in terror, holding the wax strips- Ha!), set it all back up, have cholent on the fire, bread coming out of the oven, homebrewed beer poured, and guests received without a kvetch. Then again, as the mother of the Jewish people, I expect more of her, and no doubt she managed a few pointed remarks (or at least pointed looks) to Abraham, Eliezer, and Hagar about the division of labor, even if she knew it would never be done as well if they did it. (Love you, Virgo Mom!)

But I seek wool and flax (though I'd say my weakness for yarn stores is not quite what was meant by that), make my arms strong (like ox!), and I smile at the future. I smile a lot. I guess it's worth the packing, my own failings, and seeing those boxes, and the mess surrounding them as more boxes are spawned from the wreckage, knowing that I'm going to be off, heading to a new fabulous life, and I can decorate Sacramento, or at least my corner of it, when I get there.